Quick story short —
I was a very active youth — trained to be a professional dancer about seriously 20+ hours a week for several years. Went to a professional children’s high school,etc. When I got into college — due to some emotional trauma – I quit everything and sucked into depression. Into adulthood — gained weight steadily due to bc pills and antidepressants, etc.
Abusive marriage – 10 years later. I am about 5’5″ and 145. Not really overwieght, my BMI is on the border of getting bad and I am a curvy size 10.
I would like to loose 15 lbs and convert into muscle. That would be my dream…..
reality —-I am going to a specialist because they think I am in adrenal exhaustion. I am currently overhauling my diet — taking supplements, doing my best. Feeling good emotionally – but due to the health issues — explains why everytime I have tried to start an exercise routine in the past few years — it results in me getting sick within a month.
I am NOT lazy, just exhausted. seriously – exhausted.
I don’t know how to fit exercise into my life. Even if I walk to work a few times a week (1.5) miles, I end up exhausted. Am I just doomed to be fat now?
I can’t feel good about myself at this size. I try so hard — but I feel like a fat *ss. My belly is getting big. I honestly want the energy to work out — but it feels hopeless…I am just out of my comfort zone and standards. I feel really depressed about it — but I don’t have the energy to change.
Any advice?
Thank you -